Friday, September 13, 2013

Where The Hell Have I Been?

I've neglected this blog.  

I avoided this blog.  

I've considered taking it down.

Why?  Because it's painful to write about this shit.  It's painful to think about this shit.

But it's time I got back to it because there's much more that I haven't addressed, mainly along the lines of damage I'm still dealing with.  I think there is a statute of limitations on blaming your parents for your life's problems, but that doesn't apply when one of your parents was/is a malignant narcissist.  It's like an invasion of German cockroaches.  You think you have them under control because you don't see them as much, but sure enough, when you're trying to sleep, they start crawling on the ceiling above you, always letting you know that you'll never be free of them until you burn down the whole house and start again.

More to come...


Tundra Woman said...

Is it really blaming? Or more like holding them accountable for the years of nastiness they pulled? IMO, it's the latter.

It's good to see you back, sweetness. I'm sorry stuff keeps floating to the surface but "getting it out" is the only way I know to make the exorcism work ;)

Sweetness said...

Hey there TW!

We have to hold our N-parents accountable. I just bristle at the non-ACONs who keep blaming their parents years later, and they had "good enough" parents who loved them.

Shazam1au said...

I have just found your blog, because I started my own - sort of.
It's hard to write so hats off to you for doing this one!!

I'm not a writer, but I've carried so much hurt from my NM for so long, it's a way to let it out.

Thanks for writing your story xx

Amber J said...

Hey. Im so glad i found your blog. You are great writer... I am so sorry about what you must have went through as a child living with your parents. I am in a similar situation as you. In fact, i have my own blog, if you'd like to read it ill post the link here.